‘Blast’ from the past

Sorry about the pun!

I have realised I just left this blog hanging. Not even an update about that pregnancy in 2010.

All went well, our last little boy was born safely and we now have 4 beautiful children. They are thoroughly ours. And at the same time, they are both so alike child no 1, And also so alike Kind Donor’s children. But it doesn’t feel complicated at all, and all the children seem to take it in their stride.

The technology that allows for the birth of donor babies is truly a wonderful thing, and if you have come to this blog because it’s something you are investigating, then we have no regrets.

For further reading try

Donor Conception Network

 

 

So far so good

Have been very nervous, seems like we don’t really deserve to be so lucky, but scans at 6w, 7w and 10w so far have all shown one very normal little embryo, heartbeat flickering away.

Can’t quite believe it…

but we seem to have a positive on our hands! I wasn’t feeling particularly optimistic but tested early to put myself out of my misery, and Mr ClearBlue he say… yes.

I hope it sticks around!

One beautiful blast on board…

 

 and in this post are our twins, when they were blastocysts…  https://thedrownedgirl.wordpress.com/2007/07/31/cluck-cluck/

Long time no speak

Just a quick note to say we are part way through another FET. The babies make us so happy we decided we would love just one more.

As always, the process is not without stress. We thawed 6 2pm embryos, 4 survived but one didn’t divide. At day 3 we had one at just 3 cells,plus a 6 cell and a 7 cell. We are hoping at least one will make it to blast for transfer on Friday.

The waiting is hard!

Two years ago… we were about to get our BFP

https://thedrownedgirl.wordpress.com/2007/08/09/guest-post-a-message-from-dg/

and today here we are with two beautiful babies.

I find it hard to remember the sad, bleak days of continual loss… it is almost impossible to believe that the time from November 2004 (first miscarriage) to November 2006 (decided to try donor eggs and my friend offered hers…) was only two years, it felt like eons. 

These babies are so beautiful… if I could go back to 2004 and have that first miscarriage not happen… and a totally different life unfold… I wouldn’t choose it.

I hope everyone  seeking their child through a donor, finds the happiness we have.

Donor conceived children speak about their feelings

http://www.dcnetwork.org/

Click on the pdf file in the left hand column

I’m so, so, sorry

For my blogfriend  http://www.themaybebaby.com/

I just found out that her twins were born, far too soon, and died in early December.

Life is so unfair. How can something like that happen to someone who has been through so much already?

Lovely poem

There is a brokenness out of which comes the unbroken,

A shatteredness out of which blooms the unshatterable.

There is a sorrow beyond all grief which leads to joy

And a fragility out of whose depths emerges strength.

There is a hollow space too vast for words

Through which we pass with each loss,

Out of whose darkness we are sanctified into being.

There is a cry deeper than all sound whose serrated edges cut the heart

As we break open to the place inside which is unbreakable

And whole.

by Rashani

I hope you dance…

 

For anyone wondering how it would feel to have their children via DE.

Today our beautiful DE babies are 6 months old and they are just perfect.

Someone wrote something like the soul of your baby is yours however it came to you… and I really do feel blessed that we have THESE babies, and no hankering over the ones I miscarried. I think often of the donor as she is my friend (what a friend, eh?) but not in the sense that I feel these babies aren’t mine. I don’t really look for anything in their genetics that reminds me of her, if anything, I see my older DS in them (and a little bit of her gorgeous DS and DD)

We had their naming ceremony last weekend, it was very special. All our family and friends know of the babies origin and the celebrant mentioned it in her words. Hobbesy sang for us and it was very beautiful and moving. There wasn’t a dry eye in the room!

I Hope You Dance

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat but always keep the hunger

May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love never leaves you empty handed

I hope you still feel small 
when you stand beside the ocean

Whenever one door closes
I hope one more opens

Promise me that you’ll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

I hope you dance.

I hope you never fear
those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance

Living might mean taking chances
but they’re worth taking

Loving might be a mistake
but it’s worth making

Don’t let some hell bent heart leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out reconsider

And give the heavens above
more than just a passing glance
When you get the choice to sit it out or dance

DANCE…

I hope you dance… I hope you dance…

I wish everyone could find such happiness.