White as white
Doesn’t look like DS will be getting a sibling for his birthday.
I’m 12 dpo and a 10 miu test is white as white.
I suppose it COULD change, but not likely.
Beaten but not bowed
Secondary infertility due to recurrent miscarriage, moved onto DE IVF, eggs donated by a younger friend. Beautiful twins born April 08, now pregnant again with a singleton
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Books
- Coming to term by Jon Cohen
- Creating Life Against The Odds
- Having Your Baby Through Egg Donation
- IVF – telling a child
- Making Miracles
- Mommies, Daddies, Donors, Surrogates
- Mummy, was your tummy big?
- Our Story by Nicola Baxter
- Sometimes It Takes Three to Make a Baby
- The Infertility Cure by Randine Lewis
- The Very Special Ducklings: A Very Simple Story About Egg Donation
- X, Y and me books
Donor egg/embryo blogs
- …as good as it gets?
- A few good eggs
- A little pregnant
- And I wasted all that birth control
- Are we there yet?
- Are we there yet?
- Babies on ice
- Baby steps
- Baby wanted – apply within
- Backyard Musings
- Behind Schedule
- Borrowed eggs
- Broken Eggs
- Changing expectations
- Conflicted
- Creating motherhood
- DE struggle and success
- Egg Donor
- Egg scramble
- Eujenics
- Good Woman- Bad Eggs
- Happy to be
- Hope in the jar
- IF and the city
- Indyness
- Infertility Adventure
- Labor negotiations
- Lies My Mother Told Me…
- Life in the Soupbowl
- Little Beans 4 Me
- Little bit of something
- Mi Historia
- Midlife mommy
- Missed conceptions
- My eggy journey
- My POF Journey
- Onward and sideways
- Out, damned egg! Out I say!
- Over Hard
- Pamplemousse
- Plan z
- Right vs easy
- Surrogacy and Egg donation issues
- T.K.O. …more or less…
- The adventures of Jonny and Flo
- The junk box
- The maybe baby
- The Other Shoe
- Thoughts and Ramblings of an Egg Donor
- Three bags full
- Thwarted Repeatedly
- Trying for just one (and finally succeeding)
- White chocolate babydream
- Why not me
- Wife thereof
- Wishing it would get easier
- Year of the horse
My Kind Friend
Resources
- Acebabes
- Acupuncture and fertility
- Acupuncture and IVF – study
- Acupuncture boosts IVF success
- ART and TCM
- Aspirin and IVF
- Betabase
- Blog by fertility doc
- Expert advice – embryology and acupuncture
- Fertility Friends
- HCG calculator
- How to inject clexane
- Lost and found
- Pregnancy Calendar
- Stirrup Queens and Sperm Palace Jesters – IF blogcentral!
- Taking your life off hold
- When to give up?
Resources - Donor Egg
- A site with lots of good info (nurture)
- Another blog on disclosure
- Blog about disclosure
- Blog about epigenetics
- DE treatment abroad – forum
- Disclosure – MaryEllen and Steve’s blog
- Donor Conception Network
- Egg Donation Directory
- Epigenetics
- Guardian article on donated egg family
- Infertility and the Emotional Aspects of Having a Child Through Donor Eggs
- Interesting post and discussion
- Mother Earth’s Flower Shop
- National Gamete Donation Trust
- On being open (Henry St blog)
- Secrecy and Openness
- Surrogacy and Egg donation issues
- Talking to children born via egg donation
- Tell and talk (DCN)
- Telling about DE
- Time to stop lying – G2
- Your gamete yourself
Resources - embryology
- 3 day vs 5 day transfers
- Blastocysts
- Blastocysts (2)
- Embryo images
- Facts about embryos
- Life’s greatest miracle
- Stages of development
Resources - miscarriage
- Dealing with others/advice for friends
- Finality
- First trimester ultrasound
- Hcg levels and ultrasound
- Ideas for ritual/saying goodbye
- In loving memory of Ben – youtube
- Ivillage
- Low Molecular Weight Heparin in pregnancy
- Miscarriage Tribute- Slipped Away (by Avril Lavigne)
- Miscarriage, stillbirth and infant loss blog directory
- Poem (youtube)
- Poetic acceptance
- The Beatles ‘Love’ – While My Guitar Gently Weeps
- Ultrasound Evaluation of First Trimester Pregnancy Complications
- Ultrasound of early pregnancy
The blogs I read
- All for my baby
- Almamay
- Baby be mine – miscarriage memoirs
- Baby Chaos
- Babylust
- Charlotte’s World
- Coming to terms
- Eggs benedict arnold
- Elly Russell
- Healing Arts
- I just want a baby
- Inconceivable
- Inhospitable
- IVF after the drama
- Julia
- Knocked Up…Knocked Down
- Kool Aid Mom Wannabe
- Life Begins
- Max’s Mommy
- Mgage
- Moksha
- My life as a Lisa
- Opus 5
- Our IVF journey
- Our own creation
- Pickled eggs
- Precious little
- Rollercoaster of Recurrent Miscarriage
- Scarred Bellybutton
- Scrambled Eggs
- Sisyphus
- Spiraling into control
- Stirrup Queens and Sperm Palace Jesters – IF blogcentral!
- Thalia’s fertility journey: hopefully more comedy than tragedy
- The great baby quest
- The journey
- This that and the mother thing
- Three times three
- Topcat
- Uterus x 2
- Waiting on two pink lines
- Welcome To The Dollhouse
- Whose daughter?
Beaten but not bowed 
oh sweetie, I am sorry. I thought that pulling cramping feeling you were having was a good sign for sure.
I don’t think you should lose faith just yet sometimes those tests aren’t that accurate, I don’t want to give you false hope but I just can’t accept the whiteness! Get yourself a blood test asap. Then you will really know. Fingers crossed as always. x
Thinking of you .XX
Thinking of you honey, don’t give up hope yet, you guys have come so far.
Love’n’gentle hugs
I’m sorry too. I’m in the “test now and get it over with” camp as well. Glad you know what’s right for you. It’s so difficult to deal with after all the trouble you’ve gone to and all you’ve been through.
Don’t give up yet. Those tests are not infallible. Get a blood test to be sure. Good luck.
I am so sorry, DG. Thinking of you.
I am so sorry, Drownedgirl. I was so very hopeful for you…
I’m so sorry. I really thought you’d get a nicely double-lined test. Do get a quant. hcg just to be sure.
Your ds will get a sibling and you’ll be a mom again. It just might take a tad bit longer.
Thinking so much of you right now.
How disappointing!
i have been hoping for you and continue to do so. the tests are not always accurate though in my experience they are (consistently negative in my case).
anyway please know my thoughts are with you.
So very, very sorry.
fuck.
still have all digits crossed.
xoxo
I am so sorry. I was really hoping for the best. White on white is definitely not the best. You’re in my thoughts. 🙂
I can’t help but be hopeful as I’ve been there myself on day 12 and day 14 was different.
Big, big hug to you.
Daisy
I’m so sorry.
I’m here and I am thinking of you.